Happiness vs. Joy

There is a difference between joy and happiness. Happiness occurs when good events transpire in your life and a smile and laughter grace your face. Joy is more deepseated. Joy comes from deep down; it's the gladness in the midst of the mourning. Joy is optimism when everything looks impossible. Joy is Christ's love bubbling up in our spirit. Joy is one of the fruit's of the spirit that you (and I) should strive to have on a daily basis.

Lately, I haven't felt a lot of joy. In the moment, I'm happy. When Eli's wanting to play, I'm smiling. When my family is gathered around and singing happy birthday, I'm laughing and having a great time. But it's the quiet moments...when I'm driving alone, laying in bed at night, or running errands that I don't feel that joy. Lately, all I've felt is overwhelmed and frustrated...by school, work, finances, responsibilities. And I think I've lost that joy.

Tonight, I was driving home from my grandparents'. I had a fantastic weekend. I spent quality time with my family, got a pedicure, saw a movie, celebrated my birthday. And yet, all I felt was anxiety.

My spirit was checked. Why do I not feel joy? Where is my normal, everyday optimism? Truth be told, I've let it slide. I've felt sorry for myself a little too much and not thanked God for the blessings in my life quite enough.

So, I went digging for a scripture that would fit and challenge me. I found Psalm 51:12. "Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me." I need that joy of my salvation in Jesus. And I need a willing spirit to be joyful!

This week, despite what frustrations I may face, I will be thankful for what I have and remember the joy of my salvation. :)