I think a good word for the way I feel right now is melancholy (in the contemplative, reflective sense). I'm not necessarily sad that classes and stresses are over, but the things that I value, i.e. friendships and relationships, automatically get put on hold. Yes, I'll talk to people, and possibly see them, but I don't get to live life with them for the next 3 1/2 months. I'm glad to be with my family (this you know), but I already miss my other life. What a weird age I'm at. I'm caught between growing up and being a kid. I'll be a senior in college, so I feel this demand from the world to grow up and make something out of myself. However, everything inside me wants to rebel. I like the spontaneity of my life. I like change very much. Where is the balance of responsibility and maturity with carefree living? I haven't even started my summer job, and I already feel constrained and tied down. boo.
Sorry if I made you feel depressed; I didn't mean to. In an effort to redeem this post, here are some pictures from the last week of school:
I just love this girl. Christine and I have become great friends this year.
This is the night Jeanene FINALLY came home from Boston! yay!! Karissa, Shelby, Jeanene, Heidi, and I were just chillin outside of Regents.
Yay for Jeanene!! Can you tell I'm happy she's home?
I was just about to say "Aww, I love my roommates." But they aren't my roommates anymore. : ( Sad. Aren't they cute little graduates though?
Have yourself a wonderful week.
Christen
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